Playing video games

I love video games but I hate the guilt that comes with playing them. I don't think there is a single activity in the world that makes me feel more guilty about wasting my time than playing a video game. I know the saying is that if you're having fun and enjoying yourself then you are not wasting your time, but I can't help but think of the millions of other things that I could be accomplishing instead of playing a game. I wonder why that is?

I just recently bought myself an xbox. I love it, and I am addicted to the game Skyrim. I know that I am incredibly late to the party, but I can't help but be obsessed. There is so much to explore in the game, and it's just a lot of fun. I've spent hours playing it and I haven't even scratched the surface of the main story line. The biggest issue is that nagging feeling in the back of my head while I'm on a quest. "Why aren't you doing something that is more productive," it says. Why can't I seem to shake that.

I also have an addiction to the sims and that brings on even more guilt because I am literally watching my sims do a bunch of regular things. Why am I spending hours and hours watching my sims write a novel or paint a picture when I should be doing something like that for myself? I think that this is a huge issue for creative people. If you're an artist there is always guilt when you spend a lot of time doing something but you don't have a finished product of anything to show when you're though. Maybe if Skyrim started sending me little badges every time I accomplished something in the game I would start to feel a little better about it. That's all kinds of ridiculousness.

Drinking

People's love of drinking is one of the things I have never understood about life and growing up. As a kid I always assumed drinking alcohol would be an amazing thing since so many people did it, and people become addicted to it, and younger kids were always trying to get their hands on something to drink. I thought something amazing was going to happen the first time I had a drink. When I was in high school everyone I knew loved drinking and getting together to have beer. I never participated in anything like this. I'm not sure why but I guess I never was interested.

I didn't have my first real drink until I turned 21. I ordered a drink and I was horrified by what I tried. It was not delicious at all. Everyone told me that it was an acquired taste. 4 years later I still don't understand what the big deal about drinking is. It tastes awful, it's really expensive, and being drunk is actually the worst thing in the world. So what is the appeal?

I only like drinks that taste good and that is a very rare thing. I live for wine. Wine is absolutely delicious. And margaritas are pretty amazing tasting as well. But other than that I just don't understand.

This wouldn't be a problem for most people, but it's amazing how even when you become an adult there is so much peer pressure to drink. Whenever I don't have a drink everyone will always ask me why or offer to buy me something. I'm beginning to feel like the only thing that would possibly get people off of my case about drinking would be to lie about how I am a recovering alcoholic. Maybe this needs to be my new tactic. It's sad the things you have to do in life just to get people to leave you alone.

Hi blog

So here is my first post in this little blog of mine. I'm not exactly sure where to start. I don't expect anyone to actually read what I write here but for some reason it seems appropriate to introduce myself to my new little digital spot on the internet.

I'm a young woman living in a big city and trying to make it in life. I know that that just sounds like the summary to a really bad chick flick, but it's really what I am! I only just graduated from college and I am still exploring what it is I want to do when I "grow up". I'm excited about where my life is going to take me and where I will end up. Only time will tell!

I have a lot of hobbies and loves in my life. I love spending time with my friends and I am also an artist. I read anything that has pages and I am an avid watcher of quality tv. I tend to stay away from tacky reality television shows, although it is easy to get drawn in when you stumble upon on while channel surfing.

Anyway, now that the first post is out of the way I can get started with writing whatever the heck I want to here. This will essentially just be a place for me to put all of my thoughts. If you have come across here looking for some high quality reading then you may be at the wrong spot unless you like reading a whole lotta rambling haha!